i miss you on here.

read on baby-gaga that you keep going into preterm labor. i'm praying for your comfort[as i can imagine the pain you're in], and that if she does come early all goes well.

<3 Juli

thanks love. i miss you.

did you find out the gender[i think you mentioned it on baby-gaga, but i wasn't sure if that was right?]

congrats. oh and i'm glad you got some comfy pants,lol.

<3 Juli

how are you doing? hope all is well. i miss you girl. update for me soon.

*hugs*-Juli

i did a hpt that was neg, but it was only when i was 2 days late, and it was from the dollar store.

i didn't do the weird spotting thing until 2weeks after...

i think i may do another hpt, just to make sure the first one was right.

sorry for the 1000000 comments,lol.

i joined my screen name is    awaiting-a-miracle

[TheLostAngel]

i haven't peed yet today, so it'll be first morning.

i'll join baby-gaga. i've joined them befor, back in 06 when i was pregnant. but i've forgotten that screen name lol. do they have a ttc bored yet?

i'm getting the one with the 2 lines. well 2 if positive lol.

i'll update you soon. thanks for the encouragement :D

<3 Juli

i was going to test tomarrow, but forgot to get the test today when i was in town. so i'll test saturday morning, probably.

i really hope you feel better soon:)

hey, i have had you on my favourites for a while and have been waiting patiently for an update, i hope you feel better soon. How is everything with the pregnancy?

xX melody

Both of my diarys messed up so I made a new one i forgot what I wrote so I made a new one!

Veroni

p.s im making another one since this one messed up!

i started my period on monday, so i'll be ttc soon. maybe i'll have a baby shortly after yours is here:)

Hey!

Im ALIVE .

Sorry, Lifes been so busy lately.

I've either been too busy or too tired to write .

Italy was one of those places that change your life.

The trip was amazing!

Im gonna write a massive long update.

 and about your entry...

I wanna be a medical scientist.


Love..
Gemma xo

showing you lubb.

get at me anytime.

All these emotions that your feeling are totally normal , you feel crappy and unsure how you are going to be as a parent. I have felt exactly the same - you probably didn't have the best of parents either.

You will do fine and when you least expect it something will happen to make things better :)

LOve xO

lmao yes lets do.

i could so use some dancing right now,lol.

you always make me smile:D

Holy Toledo- Im missed alot- Ive got some catching up to do

Huge smile...Congrats on BABY.

i'm so very excited for you[not that your sick, but because you got to see the baby early]. thanks for posting pictures. i love seeing these. i can't wait to have my own.

hope you feel better soon.

hope your morning sickness gets better. i puked if i got up befor 10am or stayed up later the 10pm. and got nausea at least 3 times a day other then that.

i so craved cinomin twist with nocho cheese. and my one caffiene a day was dr.pepper mixed with mountain dew, lmao.....

i can't wait for you to see your little one, i'm so excited about the pictures.[you should take belly pictures 2. at least once a month to show the changes]

got to go to work, ttyl-Juli

lmao your cravings. i know i'd like the cheerios. if the pizza didn't have sause on it, i'd like it too,lol. men get weird cravings to and sometimes gain sympathy weight with out even realising it.

i'm excited about your u/s. drink cranberry juice, it'll help with the bladder infection[with out any other side effects that will hurt the baby].

i'm getting help for my ed. if this birth control does help me start i could possibably be trying to concieve as eary as next month. wish me luck.

your moms pouch comment made me smile so big. i've been pregnant 4 times, the only time my mom noticed was the one time i told her i was pregnant. and my belly swells very quickly. [usally by 6 weeks you notice a bump on me, i only made it further then 7 weeks once, i made it to 11weeks with twins, my belly was huge(mom still didn't notice), i got kicked though, and lost them] sorry i dont want you thinking about losses. you are going to have a healthy happy little one. i'm am praying that everything throughout your whole pregnancy goes smoothly.

anyways sorry for blabbing. i just got all excited for you and had to talk,lol.

-Juli

thanks hun.

the shakey,bad,blah feeling is probably the hormones. they don't change just because you nap. wish they did. [i may not have any children but i've been pregnant 4 times, so i know the hormonal moods suck]

hope you feel better soon

-juli

thank you so much.

i just know that i could take control of my mental issues if i had the insentive of knowing i have another life to think about.

thanks again-fadingobsession

sorry for the try to get healthy statement, just relised you weren't who i thought[thought you were added because you were one of my diet buddy,lmao,so sorry]...

congrats honey. i hope everything goes well with your intestinal issues.

oh and btw, you mentioned somethings to me trying to help me with the ttc. i have offically been on birthcontrol for 3 days now. so hopefully my period will come back soon.

then it's just a matter of getting my mind in check, then i'll be ready to ttc.

-fadingobsession

congrats.

i do anything to be able to have a child.

but since i can't, i have this deppression, which feeds my anorexia.

take good care of yourself honey.

losing a baby is hard, i've misscaried 4 times, once was twins, that's 5 babies. you don't want to go through that. the mental pain is devestating. so please please try to get healthy.

good luck with everything, keep us updated:D

[fadingobsession]

You're quite welcome. I went through this 4 times.  If this is your first child...the first one is scary..at least with the next three, I knew what I was in for.  :)

thank you so much for the commenttt. :]

tellmexwherexarexyou<333

No, Thats Not Weird At All .

As for this entry.
God, I know sooo well what your feeling!

My Ex keeps trying to talk to me,
even though he has a new girl.

Saying he didnt realise what he was losing etc etc.
And he hates Sean.
Thats RARE.
Nobody hates Sean lol.

I just blocked him.
Hes gone from my life forever.

And as for you & Cary.
Im so happy for you.
I dont really know you
but my gut instinct tells me you deserve a guy like him

He is a lot like Sean
He isnt afraid to show me off to the world
And thats one of the many things i love about him.

And one of my favourite things about him.
Is that he LIKES me being clingy,
And obsessive lol.

He is perfect in my eyes

Well im just gonna finish my 8 letters for Sean
and i wont be posting for a while.

Im going on a skii trip with my school.
.

Love&Hugs.

Gemma xo

You have got symptoms, or your emotions are getting the best of you. Since you have been wanting a baby, I'm wishing you the best of luck

Good luck! Those sound like the symptoms to me, but try not to get your hopes too high either. It's a bit early for that.

(And I hope you know this 'ken' guy that commented, 'cause otherwise he sounds like an ass)

Do you wanna take my survey?

It's my latest entry

Thanks=]]

<3
Miss America.

you can add me on myspace if you want - http://www.myspace.com/thelostangel667

mines private but i'll aprove you:)

[fadingobsession]

thanks hun

and comment as much as you like, i could really use some support, and a friend.....

thanks, the photocomment.

i'm 5'4, 145lbs, tecincallt overweight,[yucky]

i've added you too[on both diarys,lol]

-juli

my periods stopped befor my ed came back. i was recovered and healthy got pregnant and still lost the baby at 7 weeks pregnant. and this year following has been extreamly had. my periods stopped back in april. my ed didn't come back until octoberish. i'm on prenatels, and am looking to get back on bc for a few months. i do have anorexia right now. however if i did have an opertunity to get pregnant, i'd get healthy quick fast and in a hurry. i'd do anything to be a mom. but the depression from not being able to has brought back on my curent food issue....

it seems like a cycle. i'm trying to pray my way out of it.

my other diary is thelostangel, i've talked to you on it the other day.

it's got more about the baby troubles.

thanks for the comment, again best of luck:)

[fadingobsession]

saw you're comment on ash's diary.

i've been trying for a baby for 2 years in feb.

i don't have periods anymore, and my doctor can't figure is out cause he's an idoit.

i currently have fallen in to a bad deppression which has brought on my eating disorder again.....[my periods stopped befor then though]

sorry for rambling just wanted to wish you good luck, and let you know you're not alone:)

-Juli

[also thelostangel]

Hey -

How strange. I have intestinal issues, also. I have not stopped pooping since August last year. I gained 35 pounds during that time , the opposite of what is happening to you. I have been diagnosed with Irritable Bowel Syndrome, but I think I have other factors going on as well, like stress at work and home, mental problems and I'm chronically tired. I think I need a shrink, haha.

Ash

Hey -

Thanks for the comment. I think that is why I have gained weight. I had some minor surgery 4 weeks ago, and did not go to the gym for three weeks. I started going again this week, and quickly jumped up three pounds in weight. I have lost inches, but I am feeling discouraged when I don't lose numbers too. I understand that muscle weighs more etc etc, but I can't let go in my head.

Ash

Thanks for all the info..I probably do have pocs!not that thats good, but once you know what you have, you can start to treat it, ya know?

Hey, WOAH.

Your Hair Is Awesome.



I Cant Help.
I Wear My Hair In A Ponytail, With My Side Fringe Down.
Or The Way Sean Likes It.. Down And Straightened.

I Dont Have Time For Experimenting.
I Get Up At 8 Every Morning To Go To Seans For Breakfast.
Or School.
Or I Sit On My Arse All Day (Always A Favourite).

Anyways, Im Glad You Like Our Story.
People Say We Are Like Something From The Movies.
You And Your Guy Look Happy :)
He Seems Nice
Sean Likes You Btw.
Totally Random Conmment Btw.

Hope Im Not Pissing You Off
Cos I Read Your Diary I Feel Like I Sort Of Know You.
Sorry If Thats Weird Or Anything.
If So, Comment Back And Say f*** Off :)
I Wont Mind

Love, <3

Gemma xo

Your extremely creative & I absolutely love your heart pic;)

You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment if you don't trust enough- Frank Crane

Thanks for the comment.

&& he sounds sweet.

I used to constantly be scared of my boyfriend hurting me too.

&& I still get that way sometimes.

A lot of people are afraid of that.

niiiice =] well i like it.

im not too good @ doing too much w/ hair,

since i always wear it down. so yeah.

sry- no suggestions. lol

 but im sure they got magazines w/ some pretty cool hair dos. eh? lol

Aww So Cute.

Tah For The Comment
Theres More Stuff Up Now.

Theres Loads More To Come .

Sean wont let me put the private stuff up. lol

Thats between us but i can relate to your entry

Hugs & Stuff.

Gemma xo 

Hahahah indeed Dio = saintly rock. :]]]

only 5 days? jeez :/ some people have it so easy :p

but that is truely adorable

i know where you are coming from. when wronged again and again it's hard to accept a new person whose diametrically oppossed to what you're used to. mine is mostly due to insecurity though.

there's a song called "i dont want to fall in love" by she wants revenge that is like so like this, I think youd like it.

awe that's sweet.

he sounds like my hubby,lol.

well not much i can say, but glad you're happy.

hope you have many more wonderful nights like this

Hey :) xo

Thanks For The Comment :)

Really Made My sh*tty Day :)

Ty xo

More Has Been Added. :)

Its A Long Story Im Afraid.

Glad You Like It!

Hope Your Well Soon xo.

Gbye

Gemma xo

oooh i like ur haiir!

heyy thnx heaps for the comment
it means a lot
&& i reckon ur right

&& u so dont sound like ur whining
u sound pretty rundown
so maybe don't push away medical help so quickly

xxx

you two both look great!! :]

&&thank you so much !

tellmexwherexarexyou<333